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Jesus, you have not given me too much to handle. Not only that but you told me that I can do all things through your strength. I believe that you will give your strength because I want to do your will, whatever that may be. I am begining to realize just how futile and hopeless my own attemps at living my life for you are. The hard part about this situation is that I am so incredibility human. In my brain and in my heart I want to live a life for you but so often the substance of my day does not reflect that. In addition to my crippling humanity I find that I do not really understand the way that you are loving me right now. Your love is perfect and desires more than anything that I become more like you but why does that have to cause so much pain in my life> I don't really understand it all that well right now. But I know that through this I have been pushed back to you and I need you so much more that when my life seems easy. I need to feel your presences and providence in my life and I need you to increase my peace and my faith. You have created a storm for me right now to strengthen me but you are also my rock in that storm and my shelter too. So right now I don't really understand this form of love in my life but I am so grateful and am the luckiest girl in the world for being able to experience it.