..abundance

Today has been a definite epic God journey.

This is the list that I will be exploring...

one. conversation with Erendira
two. conversation with Ashley Cheney
three. conversation with John
four. conversation with Becky
five. conversation with Tony



Conversation with Eren. Today I got a chance to meet with Eren in a blatant attempt to try and figure out who she is and what she is all about. It was great to get to know her for the beautiful woman of God she is and breakdown all of my summised, preconceived notions. It made me incredible embarrassed about the stance I had taken so many time before when it was absolutely based on false accepting. She taught me that sometime God uses transitional passions in our live to prepare us for something greater.

Conversation with Ashley. This lunch I got the opportunity to chat with Ashley Cheney and I felt like it was a time where God was speaking through me. I was able to explain the movement of God in my own life over the course of this year and the things that he has been teaching me. I did not feel as though it was me needlessly telling her great things about me but that God was simply allowing me to share my growth process with someone who was willing to learn. I felt a deeply rested place of passion when I talked to her. I am very excited to see where God leads her for her summer.

Conversation with John. So that spine that I had been wanting to grow and that Jesus was waiting for finally calcified today. I confronted a lot of my personal apathy in our friendship which I understand comes from a root of fear and a lack of trust. I am very thankful for the example of Jesus when dealing with Peter and it has given me a great Biblical model in which to love from. I am also beginning to learn the beauty of building trust and solidarity in friendship and I am excited to explore those realities in the future. Needless to say, this conversation was the summation of 9 months of prayer and waiting and it was very sweet.

Conversation with Becky. Becky has been struggling immensely in her life over the last week. Huge, foundation shaking realizations about herself, God, and everything. My struggle through this process has been how to be Christ to her. I want her to know that I love and unconditionally accept her right where she is but I also want to share the truth with her because I love her so much. This has been the heavy burden on my soul over this last little bit. But God decided to answer that prayer tonight too. I was able to intimately and rawly share with her my relationship with Christ and I cried and it was very authentic. Her struggles have brought me to a place of sober judgment about myself and has shown me the depths of God's grace in my life. I cried on the walk home because of the intensity of love that Christ has decided to give me.

Conversation with Tony. Walking back from Becky I met a man at the 13 and offered him some cocoa which turned into lunch which turned into proposed night at the dorm which then turned into a ride to the Seattle Center. This small little adventure was a beautiful section of my day. I apologized and was embarrassed about our school and Tony said, "They just want to be heard and never seen." I agree him completely and her was such a beautiful person.

Today has been a very amazing and abundant day in my life. I have explored the richness of grace, acceptance, reconciliation, honesty, and love and I rest in divine thankfulness now. I feel that if today is a snap shot of the rest of my life, I could definitely be down with that. I am going to say a prayer of thankfulness now and rest in the presence of a Jesus who obviously love me a lot.