..humility

The art of being humble is one that is practiced and not simply acquired by having a relationship with Christ. I pray to become dead to myself and only found in Christ and that is what I am getting but that process stings a little bit. I know that there is something else in store for me and the possibility of the unknown is so tangibly at the fingertips of my existence that excitement is the only emotion that can be used. The vast openness of the next year of my life is slightly overwhelming and takes my breath away if I think about it. There is so much that will fill that space and so much learning that will occur that it will not seem empty. The unknown terrain of tomorrow causes faith and my tomorrow needs to be unknown for me to trust. Oh how simple it would be to see and trust and then obey. However easy it may be, it is not the way I want or desire. I desire to grow in Christ and be only found in my and if that means coming to the humiliating ends of failing and the unknown plaguing every corner of my life, then I am fine with that. Why do I go into times of my life of unknowing with fear and apprehension when there should be an overwhelming air of elation the moment my eyes part for the day. The feeling of possibility that washed over me this morning is one that should quickly come to mind at any given moment. In Christ I can do all things but that does not mean I will or have to. It means that there is possibility and in that possibility, hope for something great.