7.30.2008

..sick

I would refund this summer if I could. Regret is a feeling that I don't often have  but I would redo this summer if I could.

I am also tired of being sick. The  physical pain/annoyance it causes is tolerable but the fatigue, grumpiness, and temptation of being self-centered is exhausting. I just want to be well and finish the projects that I have started this summer. 

I have been thinking about sickness and how it effects my perception of the world.  Not being able to  taste and  smell makes food a very dull experience. If my sin can be compared to sickness,  how much of reality am I not experiencing because of my limited state? And when things start to improve and I become healthier, the world really doesn't alter that much, just my perception of it.

Visiting the doctor was a huge  blessing  today. I sad there and  was very humbled at the  power that I  had to ask and receive medical treatment. From the most basic terms, I do not understand how this is an option and not a right.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

What I've found with my various physical ailments over the years, and in the last few weeks especially, is that I become very self centered and grumpy, and it doesn't have to be that way. I felt cheerful today, and not in a fake way. I'm glad you had a good doctor experience.